My brother has had such a hard life. It seems like he can't catch a break. Why have I been given so much, while he has to struggle? I know that we've both made choices that have lead us to where we are now, but how the heck does God's plan or will (or whatever the heck) fit in?! Why didn't God start my brother's life out just right, and give him certain qualities so that he would have never found the wrong path? I realize that for God's love to be perfect, we have to be free to follow Him or not. But why doesn't He just make us in a way that we all want to follow Him? I don't know, maybe that violates the free will clause or something. But I don't see how.
Sometimes I feel like I'm rubbing my brother's face in my "success". He has to sit there and listen as I tell my parents about amazing experiences from college. He was just skipped over. He wasn't headed on the path for college at the end of high school, and so he missed his shot at it. I'm sucking my parent's money dry so that they can pay for my ridiculously priced education, while my brother works at Wendy's, struggles to pay rent, and wishes he were in college. Where is the justice? My parents have offered to pay for his college and let him live at home, but he would have to submit to drug tests. He's not willing to pay that price, and so his life remains the same. How did God let this happen? I know that my brother is in controll of his choices, but why the heck would God set him up for this life? Why does God even create people that are going to turn from Him and suffer eternal damnation? God knows what everyone's life will hold, so why does He go ahead and create people that will live unfulfilled lives? It seems cruel. I hate that I can't see the whole picture. I'm holding on to the idea that God is a perfectly good God. But I just can't comprehend how that is true.
